I love to Blog
and thats a fact
Then where have you been, you might ask
Traveled before
Cut time in half
Didn't even have time to unpack
House got cleaned
and cookies baked
Family was coming to celebrate
The lists were made
The money tight
Stores were open late each night
Found Gifts for her
and gifts for him
Got shiny paper to wrap them in
Crowds were terrific
My feet really ached
Couldn't remember to buy Scotch tape
The lines were long
The sales weren't great
Just 10% and I still had to wait
Buckets of Red
and Bells that rang
Forgot to bring some cash again
Hugs and Kisses
Hellos, Goodbyes
Everyone made it to my surprise
No time to write
No time to sit
Thats my excuse and I sticking to it
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Just For Me
I wore a cross around my neck
In the hope that others would respect
How I chose to let all see
My faith and what it meant to me
But even as they all could see
This emblem of my piety
They also saw the times I tried
But failed to live a Christ like life
And so I put my cross away
I could not bear their scornful gaze
And didn’t want His name denied
Because of failures in my life
But soon I learned more of the price
He paid for me with His own life
When in repentance I would seek
Forgiveness and in faith receive
Amazing Grace and restoration
With only love not condemnation
For on the cross He died for me
And bore my sins upon that tree
So now I wear my cross again
In memory of His suffering
And to remember when I fall
His love for me is all in all
Monday, December 8, 2014
Pleasers
They never seem to be too busy
They’re always at your beck and call
Whatever you ask they’re at the ready
Enthusiastically giving there all
You know the kind I’m talking about
They come to you, you don’t seek them out
It’s hard not to like their cheerful demeanors
But you have to wonder what they’re really about
You start to suspect ulterior motives
Although they’re most humble when given reward
Even when only your praise if offered
They seem to be willing to do even more
They don’t seem to ask for much in return
Their cheerfulness seems contagious
You find yourself trying to please them instead
Their motive revealed is outrageous
It turns out they only want one thing
Their unwavering service a prologue
To gaining your total devotion and love
Then taking their place as your top Dog
Friday, December 5, 2014
Stargazers
Every job has its mundane moments when it seems repetitious
and even boring. You wouldn’t think that
could happen in the beautiful Colorado Rockies, but by the middle of the season,
even the uniqueness of living on a guest ranch began to wear off. To the staff, cleaning stalls, washing
dishes, and cooking and serving 3 meals a day was beginning to feel more and
more like work. There were certain
events each summer that brought the excitement back, like local rodeos and
concerts. One of the most anticipated though, was a very special quest.
Many families returned year after year and veteran staff got
to know them well, some even developing lasting friendships. One of those
guests was an astronaut. He brought his
family every summer and we could always count on two things happening when he
was there. Late night apple pie raids of
the kitchen and a staff attitude adjustment ride for some stargazing. After
dinner when the guests returned to their cabins staff members would ride with
him to our favorite spot on a ridge above the ranch and wait for the sun to
set. It was a time to relax and just be
ourselves and looking over the ranch from that spot somehow put everything back
in perspective. When the stars came out
our own personal astronaut would point out the constellations. You could tell
he was passionate about space and loved sharing that passion with us. He told
us what it was like looking down from an even higher vantage point seeing the
constellations formed by the lights of the cities and towns. I remember thinking that they were almost
like a reflection of the stars.
The lights of Christmas remind me how a brilliant star
announced the birth of my savior Jesus Christ, who is the true Light of the
World. The one with the greatest vantage point of all sees the reflection of
His light in all those who believe. Won’t
you consider asking Him into your heart so you receive a new life and a new
perspective through His passionate and unconditional love for you?
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Breathtaking or How I Learned to Articulate
Kids, dogs and camping gear were once again piled into our
Suburban as we set off on another family vacation. We always started out early
in the morning so the kids usually slept until we had left the city and suburbs
far behind. For some reason when they
woke up the miles and miles of open road did not hold their attention for very
long. They amused themselves for a while trying
to get truckers to honk by pulling on imaginary cords as we drove by. Once they had managed to get a few responses
they went on to play games involving the colors or state license plates of
passing cars.
Eventually they would get bored with that too, so we always
had them pack a small bag for the backseat with books and puzzles or small
games. Things were quiet for a while as
they began to pull out their emergency anti boredom items until our 7 year old son
complained that he had a headache. Our
first solution was to tell him to close his eyes for a few minutes. Seconds later he announced that it had not
worked. For some reason the same child who
could fall asleep in mid-sentence when tired and who had slept for the first
two hours of the trip, was unable to close his eyes for more than 10 seconds at
a time.
When he complained again he said that he was having a hard
time reading because of his headache. I
told him that he needed to stop reading for a while because that would probably
help. That seemed to do it because we
didn’t hear anymore complaining from the back seat for a while, just what I
thought were heavy sighs of boredom.
After the third one I turned around in my seat to check it out, just in
time to see that the sigh was really a long exhale. Then I watched as he filled his lungs, puffed
out his cheeks and held his breath. I
asked him what he was doing and after exhaling again he said with a tired whine
that he was doing what I told him to do but that it was hard not to breathe.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Aftermath or Has Anybody Seen the Cat?
No room in the fridge or freezer
Towels and sheets need to be washed
Garbage cans are overflowing
The DVR remote is lost
Kids are sleeping by the TV
Pets are nowhere to be found
Every dish in the washer
Toys and videos scattered round
We all gathered round the table
To give thanks, remember, laugh
Our time together is all too short
But always worth the aftermath
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
The Lights In Her Eyes
The anniversaries of two events that changed my life forever
happened between November 23rd and Christmas of the same year. My daughter was born the day before
Thanksgiving and not quite three weeks later my husband, her father, passed
away in a tragic accident.
I don’t really remember much about the 6 or 7 days
following the accident except my wonderful family dropping everything to be at
my side for the memorial service. I
didn’t want to travel with the baby so my best friend flew out to stay with me
and my sisters and Mom returned to celebrate the holiday with their young
children. Christmas Eve night came and
went with the presents still wrapped and under the tree. Christmas night
promised to be just as uneventful but as we sat in the living room talking, the
Christmas tree and window lights suddenly popped on. They were on a timer and someone else must
have been turning them off for me each night because I never even saw them. My friend jumped up to turn them off but I
told her to stop when I saw my daughter smiling and looking at the tree. The lights reflected in her wondering eyes
and just for a moment it was Christmas.
We have come a long way since then and this season always
brings with it, the memories, both joyous and sorrowful. We will be celebrating her birthday on
Thanksgiving Day this year and, as always, I will thank God for her and all He
has brought us through.Happy Birthday, My Girl. May God always give you something to wonder at that will bring a light to your eyes and smile to your face even through the hardest times.
Friday, November 21, 2014
Tried and Truth
T is for the timing that
was all wrong
U is for the undercooked green beans
R is for the runny homemade gravy
K is for the knife that won’t carve meat
E is for the eggnog I forgot to buy
Y is for the yams that turned to mush
I sure glad that all that really matters
Is thanking God for all He’s done for us
U is for the undercooked green beans
R is for the runny homemade gravy
K is for the knife that won’t carve meat
E is for the eggnog I forgot to buy
Y is for the yams that turned to mush
I sure glad that all that really matters
Is thanking God for all He’s done for us
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Unforgettable Love
My Mom is a great cook, which she would probably deny, but it’s
the truth. That is why it is so odd that
one of our family’s holiday traditions is to tease her about burning the rolls.
Her holiday meals always looked and tasted fantastic. One Thanksgiving she was putting the last
dish on the table when someone said that they smelled something burning. It was the rolls. She had put them in the oven while she put
the finishing touches on the serving platters and forgot about them. That can happen to anyone and you might think
us cruel to never let her forget one simple mistake. The problem was that for a few years in row
she repeated the same mistake which became just too tempting to ignore and the
teasing became a holiday tradition.
Knowing it was done in love she took it with grace and
patience. She could afford to be patient,
as all parents can, knowing that eventually her children would be the ones
serving the holiday meal and that great moment would dawn when they would
appreciate all the effort and love that went into it. I won’t name names but I can remember a few holiday
meals that included mistakes by other members of the family that rivaled hers. If
they had been repeated I am sure the burnt rolls would have been forgotten.
How gracious and patient our Heavenly Father is to wait for
us recognize our sins. It doesn’t matter
what we’ve done or even that we have made the same mistakes over and over
again. He waits for us to ask His
forgiveness and accept the effort and love that went into the sacrifice of His
Son Jesus, so that we will always know we are loved even when we burn the
rolls.
Sunday, November 9, 2014
Striking it Real
When I went to Colorado to work on a guest ranch there was
one other thing that I wanted to do out West more than anything else. I wanted to visit a ghost town. Not a tourist trap with gunfight reenactments,
and souvenir hats but a real ghost town with deserted buildings, tumbleweeds
rolling down the streets and at least one battered wooden sign swinging from a
hook and creaking in the wind. You know, a real ghost town just like the ones
on TV and in the movies.
I bought a book about how to find some of the few
historic towns that remained untouched. The
closest one to the ranch was a town that grew up around silver mines high in
the mountains. According to the book, at
one time the town had 5 restaurants and 3 saloons accommodating the miners and
their families. I followed the map to
the location and knew I had found it when I saw the picturesque head frame of
the mine shaft that was still standing and a historical marker describing the silver
strike as one of the richest ever made.
The only other structure that could be seen was a small
shack a short distance from the mine. I
hiked up to it and carefully stepped through the open door and onto the broken
and rotting floor boards. The sun pierced
through the scattered holes in the roof as the dust I disturbed floated through
its shafts. There were tattered pieces of
wall paper clinging to what remained of the walls. A
small wooden table stood at one end but other than that it was empty. Imagining
anyone living, and working in this remote place was difficult if not impossible.
None of the re-creations I had seen even came close to what living in such isolated
and harsh conditions must have been like.
I wasn’t disappointed by what I found. It might not have lived up to my expectations
but it was real and it was the kind of reality that matured my thoughts and
made me want to seek the truth instead of chasing fantasies.
Monday, November 3, 2014
Guess Who Came To Dinner
As a
newlywed I was very excited about hosting our first barbeque. Our property at the base of the foothills had
just as much cactus as it did grass so we set up on the cement patio between
the house and the garage. We had just
framed out an addition to the garage so I tried to disguise the stacked lumber
with flower pots.
Everything
was going great until I happened to glance up.
The largest snake I had ever seen in my life was stretched out across a
large beam about eight feet high and practically above the heads of the guests. Within seconds many things raced through my
mind, not the least of which was how it got up there and would it come down to
join the party. Although the markings
were similar I was pretty sure that it wasn’t a rattlesnake because of its
size. It was as large as some boa
constrictors I had seen so I didn’t even know if it was native or an escaped
pet.
The only
word that I managed to speak, or rather squeak, was snake! Within seconds everyone had scanned the
ground around their feet and stood to prepare for a quick exit since
rattlesnakes were not rare in that area.
I pointed, still lacking the appropriate words to tactfully introduce
the uninvited guest. My husband
immediately climbed up the stacked lumber, grabbed the snake and pulled it down
right in front of everyone. Apparently,
I was the only one in a state of near panic because after a short discussion
about what a big Bull snake it was my husband took it behind the house and the
party continued. Not wanting to appear
cowardly I did my best to remain composed.
Later I
asked what he had done with the body, assuming that he had killed it as he
would a rattlesnake on the property. He
explained that Bull snakes were beneficial and kept the rodent population down so
he let it go out back. Somehow, for me anyway,
that did not make up for the fact that it was 6 feet long and could climb up the
side of a building. I was grateful that
our guests were locals because I couldn’t even imagine the panic that would
have ensued if the folks from back home would have been there. Sensing my uneasiness he suggested I give it
a name and treat it like a pet. I
secretly named it after him because I wasn’t sure at that moment which one was
going to be sent to live in the backyard if it showed up at one of our
barbeques again.on
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Songs From A Grateful Heart
If I sing How Great Thou Art
While waves of doubt flow through my heart
Or sing about Amazing Grace
But in the mirror my shame I face
Or if I have no words to say
But only tears come when I pray
Or passing through the fires of fear
I run instead of drawing near
Your gentle spirit deep within
Reminds me of forgiven sins
And a new life that’s begun
Because you freely gave your Son
I know that I can rest in You
And find my peace in hope renewed
If on your promises I’ll stand
And come to you Just As I Am
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
High Witness - or The Girl Who Cried Flower
One of the best things about working summers at a guest
ranch in Colorado was meeting the other young men and women from all over the
country, or out of the country, who also spent their summers there. Housekeepers, waitresses and cooks were needed
as well as wranglers and ranch hands so the staff consisted of city dwellers,
flatlanders (otherwise known as Midwesterners), foreigners and cowboys. A clash of cultures at times but for the most
part a wonderful learning experience. Coming from Illinois, I fell into the flatlander category. Before the ranch I had never been anywhere
farther than Wisconsin so I was pretty naïve when it came to the ways of the
West. It turned out I was not alone.
Most of us knew
little or nothing about mountains, riding, ranching or the beautiful natural
habitat that surrounded us. We learned as we went and it wasn’t always the easy
way. Cactus didn’t grow in the middle of
the Illinois prairies that I was used to running barefoot through, and neither
did nettles. Pain is an amazing teacher
and so is humiliation.
One evening I was late returning from a hike and it was
getting dark faster than I expected.
As I finally reached the ranch road leading to the lodge I noticed that
both sides were lined with beautiful white flowers. They weren’t there in the morning when I
started out so I thought they had all bloomed sometime during that day. The entire kitchen staff followed me down the
road the next morning just to see them, but they were all gone. They looked at me as though I had lost my mind
and from then on I was the butt of jokes about eating hallucinogenic mushrooms
while on my hike etc., etc. I knew that
I had seen them, so I checked every morning so that I could prove it. That only
added fuel to the fire when I had to come back and tell them they were not
there. After dinner one night I went for
a walk and there they were again. I
practically dragged a couple fellow staffers down the road to be witnesses to
my sanity. One of the locals came with us and really got a kick out of
listening to us go on about the mystical disappearing flowers. Finally he couldn’t stand it anymore and told
us that they were Evening Primroses and that they only bloomed at night. At least I wasn’t hallucinating.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Virtue Smirtue or I Am Not Impatient
It starts with great anticipation
Building to a fever pitch
Then stirring my imagination
Takes me on a journey rich
Through fantasies of great elation
And depths of deep despair
My expectations rise and fall
While what’s to come is still unclear
When my mind’s eye slows and stops
I’m at the mercy of the clock
Anticipation turns to dread as
Temptation rears its’ ugly head
To taunt me into doubting if
The plans I thought I made
Did not exist or even worse
Were meant for yesterday
Suddenly scheduled events
My fears and doubts deflating
Evolve into reality
And end the awful waiting
Friday, October 17, 2014
We're Not In Kansas Anymore John Boy
A light snow was falling as we made our way up the steep mountain
slope. My fiancé led the way to the
place near the top where he promised we would find the perfect Christmas
tree. We saw deer and Elk and the view
became more spectacular the higher we climbed. He seemed to know every inch of
the mountain and I couldn’t help feeling like I was living an episode of the
Waltons.
Apparently he had
become used to the fact that I babbled when I was excited because he patiently
answered all of the random questions I asked as we as we climbed. How high did he think we were, where the deer
went when it snowed, what kind of pine trees were they, and so on and so on. We did
find the perfect tree and just as he started to chop it down the wind shifted
and the snow started to come down with a vengeance. In the short time it took to fell the tree, the
snow had already covered the ground. He
said not to worry because going down was always quicker than climbing up. I was
laughing and chattering as we made our way down but I could only see a few feet
ahead in the blinding snow and found myself sliding more than walking. My Walton’s episode had begun to feel more
like a natural disaster movie, so I decided I’d better be quiet and take
things a little more seriously.
Suddenly he stopped, looked back at me and then stood
looking down the slope scanning it from right to left, before he started down
again. When we finally reached the truck
I asked him if he stopped because he lost his way. He said no and explained that he was taught
that when you find yourself in a potentially dangerous situation, and
conditions change drastically, you should always stop and get your bearings
before continuing. I couldn’t remember
anything changing drastically before that time and was sorry I asked when he
told me it was because I had stopped talking.
Monday, October 13, 2014
Avoiding a Catastrophe or They're Not Just Fluffy You Know
What can you say about cats
That hasn’t already been said
There are legends and myths
Even Hieroglyphics
And plenty of books to be read
Although they are not
Universally loved
And the reason for sneezing for some
Sheer numbers aside
Facts can’t be denied
To many they’re gifts from above
So why should I try to add even more
Beyond what's already been told
Compared to folklore and tales
My efforts might pale
So it might be considered quite bold
I love animals all
And I have to admit
Cats are close to the top of the list
I decided I must
Risk causing a fuss
And add my own words to the mix
As much as we love them
We must face the facts
Their finicky habits won’t keep it in check
We’ll love them to death
If we just can’t accept
Cats get Fat
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Hope in Deep Waters
We were indoctrinated at an early age. We sat on blankets with our bamboo poles
lying next to us, dangling the tips over the top of the seawall. The line went straight down to the bobber so
that the tiny tug of the child size sunfish or perch would bend the thin tip of
the bamboo. Eventually we were allowed
to stand and use the entire pole to try for Striped Bass or Crappies. We swung them onto the shore at the end of the
long poles while learning to duck the flying catches of others. Bait was everything from tiny pieces of old
lace, minnows, worms and even leeches. I
personally drew the line at leeches even though it threatened my status as a
proper fisherman.
A rite of passage was
to own our first rod and reel and learning to cast was as important as learning
to swim. It also allowed us to try for
the larger deep water fish like Pike and Catfish. Along the way we learned to read the
river. When the water was too high or
the Carp were spawning in the shallows, the fishing would not be good. When the May flies appeared or the water was
very still the time was right. The
reward for all this was a Sunday afternoon fish fry and the satisfaction of
knowing that we had provided the delicious, fresh ingredients. It didn’t hurt that along the way we learned
patience and perseverance, and how to be quiet for long periods of time.
As my life stands right now, I can’t even imagine having the
time to sit on a riverbank, pole in hand, letting just the sun dictate my
time. I am also pretty sure that the
patience and perseverance I remember having back then might fail me. But I
do know where I can go to find the same kind of peace and timeless
contentment. No matter if life is
rushing by or its troubles are multiplying I can “Cast my burdens upon the Lord
and he will sustain me…..” (Psalm 55:22 KJV)
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Love Letters
Sometimes when you are far away
I just don’t know what to say
Sometimes I hear a melody
And we’re together as I sing
Sometimes you’re unbelievable
Outrageous and hysterical
Sometimes you are quite personal
Somehow reaching to my soul
Sometimes your dark intensity
Reveals a passion that runs deep
Sometimes it’s very clear to me
That you and I were meant to be
Sometimes when I need to be heard
I cannot live without you, words
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Reunion
The past ignited by a spark of recognition
Is dimmed by the realization of change
Shared memories fan the flames of reconnection
And from the embers glow the warmth of family remains
Raczon Family Reunion – October, 4th, 2014
Friday, October 3, 2014
If Time Stood Still
When the days go rushing by
And time my schedule must deny
I think that it would be a thrill
If just for once time would stand still
The bills still due would wait a while
The clothes I own would stay in style
My kids would stay both sweet and small
My hair would not turn grey at all
But then the future would not be
No goals or possibilities
Problems now would stay unsolved
My hopes and dreams would just dissolve
I guess time must continue on
And mark the seasons and the dawns
To move me through both joy and grief
And fill my heart with memories
When my life comes to an end
And all my time on earth is spent
In God’s arms I’ll find true peace
As time stands still for eternity
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Whatever You Do Don't Grab That Branch
Everyone at the ranch was excited
about the opportunity to go tubing. The nearby river, that was usually too
shallow, was swelled by recent rains, and just high enough for a good ride. I had great memories of lazily floating on an
old car tire inner tube down the deep, meandering, waters of the Fox River back
home. Those memories began to fade when
I saw them loading the gigantic tractor sized inner tubes into the horse trailer. The memories disappeared completely when I
saw the river. This deep water wasn’t
calm and smooth it was swirling and dark with a relentless canyon carving flow.
As she was holding the tube so I
could climb on, my friend told me to just hang on and down around the bend the
current would wash the tubes up onto a sandbar.
The trucks would wait for us there. Knowing I was inexperienced she added, “Whatever
you do don’t grab a branch if you get close to the shore, if you are afraid of
getting hit by one just duck down as low as you can into the center of the tube”.
With that said she pushed me out
into the current. I couldn’t believe how
fast I was going, spinning with the swirling current then bouncing across small
bubbling rapids that formed between the scattered boulders. Suddenly I was headed toward the riverbank
where there were overhanging branches. I
remembered the part about ducking but as I sank lower into the center of the
tube I felt myself slipping. Instinctivley I reached for a branch to pull
myself up. It only took a split second to
realize why I should have remembered the 1st part of the warning as the rushing current pulled the
tube right out from under me. The branch
and my grip were not strong enough to hold me and I splashed into the icy cold
water. Immediately I felt myself being pushed sideways
instead of sinking to the bottom. The sideways momentum gradually brought me to
the surface not far from my tube. I grabbed
it and finished the ride clinging to its side and being dragged up onto the sandbar
like a fish on a line.
The moral of the story: When we feel out of control, sometimes we need to fight our first instincts and heed the warnings that come from experience, otherwise we
may find ourselves in over our heads.
Monday, September 29, 2014
No Time to Waste
No question He can’t answer
No problem is too big
No doubt He can’t help overcome
No help He cannot give
No fear He cannot cast out
No wound He cannot heal
No Enemy is stronger
No storm He cannot still
No love we have can match His
No faith in Him enough
No works we do can save us
No sin can end His love
No hopelessness is lasting
No life without His plan
No future without heaven
When we say yes to Him
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Nuts and Bolts and Baby Food Jars
The old garage was the one place we were not allowed to
play. It was dark and dusty and it
smelled of damp wood, oil and rust. Mom
said it was dangerous because of all the tools, junk, and rusty nails. The lure
of the forbidden and mystery of the unknown were counteracted, at least for me,
by the spiders and the wasps. We had to
go in to get our bikes and fishing poles but we made sure they were near the
door so we could just grab them. The two small dust coated windows didn’t let
much light in even on a sunny day. There
was one naked light bulb in the center that barely illuminated the floor
beneath it, and that seemed to make the corners even darker.
When Daddy was fixing the lawn mower or building something
out there we were told not to bother him. His territory, it was a much grittier
version of today’s man cave. We were surprised one day when Mom told us all to
go out to the garage and help our father.
I am not sure, but I think we had been complaining about not having anything
to do, so as parents of bored kids will do, they found something to occupy us.
Daddy managed makeshift seats for us all, near his work bench, and spilled two
grease soaked cardboard boxes full of nuts and bolts on top of it. It was our job to sort them by size and type
into little glass baby food jars that he had been saving in another grease
soaked cardboard box.
It certainly wasn’t what we had in mind for an activity, but
we knew better than to add another complaint to the day’s list. We were dirty
and tired by the time we finished, but satisfied to see all of the little jars
neatly lining the shelves above the workbench, sorted and ready to use. What makes a lasting memory? Stepping into the unknown and working
together toward a common goal. Hmm, and
I thought they were just trying to keep us busy.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
It's Hard To Be Humbled
They say pride goeth before the fall
I don’t know if that’s true at all
One thing I know that’s very clear
Humiliation is always near
There’s nothing like a healthy diet
To impress a prospective client
He left with lasting memories
Of the spinach stuck between my teeth
We hugged, we laughed, and we reminisced
And claimed the other looked the same
I would have enjoyed our reunion more
If I could have remembered her name
The screen was dark and the mouse was dead
But it wasn’t panic that turned me red
I called IT and they rushed to begin
Solving the problem by plugging it in
They smiled and nodded as I walked past
But it didn’t take long for my ego to crash
It wasn’t me they were happy to view
But what was stuck to the bottom of my shoe
It’s hard to be humbled by life’s little jokes
But sometimes my pride needs a little poke
To deflate my ego and keep it small
And hopefully keep me from that fall
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Flying With the Eagles
On a family vacation to Southern Illinois we planned a stop
at a Bald Eagle nesting area near the Mississippi river. We thought it would be a great way to break
up the monotony of the drive. From the viewing area we could see the eagles
sitting in the tops of the trees and flying high above the water. They were so far away that you could barely
see their white feathered heads.
We crossed the Mississippi to have lunch in Iowa and the
kids begged to try to find a way to see the eagles closer, up before we left the area. I explained that we were not sure if there
was a way to get closer and that we still had several hours on the road to get
to the campground before dark. They
seemed very disappointed and I thought the whole plan had backfired.
As we headed back across the river, one of the kids yelled
and pointed out the window. Flying alongside
the bridge and just above the water was a magnificent Bald Eagle. Only the two of us sitting on the passenger side
could see it and there was nowhere to pull over on the bridge.
Suddenly the eagle rose up effortlessly on a currant of air
and began flying directly across from us in full view of everyone in the
car. For a few moments it felt as though
we were flying right along with it, until another currant of air carried it up
and out of sight. It was one of the
highlights of the whole trip.
As we drove on, I thought about how I had been content to see
the eagles from far away, not willing to change our schedule or look for
another vantage point. Those few moments
of feeling as though I could fly freely, made me wish that I had been as willing
as the kids to put aside my plans and believe God for more.
Friday, August 29, 2014
The Romance of Nature
The crackle and pop of the gravel, underneath the tires, was
amplified by the dense silence. It was
an hour before dawn and we were traveling to our favorite hunting spots on the
family farm. It was not only silent but eerily
dark. Darker than usual because clouds
covered the legions of stars that normally blanketed the country sky.
We navigated only by our headlights which seemed to be cut
short by the darkness. Suddenly the gravel
appeared to take on shape as the lights revealed a huge Whitetail buck standing
in the middle of the road. It barely
glanced at us as we slowed to a stop. It
was the rutting season and he only had one thing on his mind. We could see her at the edge of the light in
the field next to the road
Before we knew what was happening, a second buck appeared
out of the blackness. The first one
swung around and the battle began. We
turned off the engine and lowered the windows listening to the sounds of the
antlers as they cracked together and the grunts and groans of the combatants. It
was thrilling and mesmerizing. Wild life
realized far beyond the two dimensional scenes of a nature documentary.
As quickly as it began it was over and the second buck
retreated into the darkness. The victor wasted no time claiming his spoils. She
had waited patiently for him and like the end of an old movie, the scene faded
to black as we continued down the road giving them some privacy. Driving away, I realized that from the moment
the battle began we had hardly spoken a word.
We were silent observers capturing time, not with a photograph or a
video but with a shared memory that was ours alone.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Get Over It
There’s such a thing as stalking
There are people I can call
I really don’t want to break your heart
But the only choice is to stay apartMonday, August 25, 2014
Breakthrough
There it is, I see it now
The possibilities and the how
Plain as day the steps are clear
One leap of faith and then I’m there
No use rushing after all this time
I wouldn’t want to miss a sign
I should think it through once more
List pros and cons and add the scoresFriday, August 22, 2014
A Body in the Trunk or Oh Lucy VI
Every year my husband and I went deer hunting on a family
farm about 4 hours from home. One year
he got a doe on Sunday afternoon. The
processor near the farm was not open on Sunday so we had to bring the deer home
on the roof of our Suburban. It was
unseasonably warm that year so we covered it with a tarp packed with ice. That night he hung it in the garage and we
planned to transport it to our local processor when he got home from work the
next day.
Monday afternoon he called and told me that he had to work
late and since it was so hot we would probably end up paying for its disposal. Our family loved venison and the meat would really
help keep the grocery bills down for the winter so I decided I had to try and
save it.
It was hanging right above our chest freezer in the garage
so I put a tarp over the freezer and tried to release the pulley rope slowly to
gently lay it down. I should have
stopped right after several hundred pounds of dead weight crashed down onto the
freezer but I was determined.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
It's Just a Game or What Do You Mean There Are No Directions?
Is a Comic Con a felon?
Are two Wii a Wheeze?
Sorry, but the gaming world
Is not my cup of tea
Don’t get me wrong I’ve played a few
From Pong to Mario
But my gaming heart belongs
To Scrabble and Uno
That doesn’t make me old you know
Just a connoisseur
I’ll stick to classics that I love
They're cheaper that’s for sureSunday, August 17, 2014
Room at the Table
Divorced was not something that I had ever imagined being
and the aftermath not something I would ever have expected. The pain of rejection, failure and guilt
mixed with the feeling of somehow being out of place and time, took my breath
away.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Science Unplugged
Raising quail wasn’t all work. Every summer we entered our birds in the
County Fair and every year we won Best in Show. Not because our quail were the best but
because they were the only quail entered.
We had created educational displays about what quail ate and
how they lived in the wild for the kids. One day the principle of a local
private school stopped at our fair booth and asked if I could to do a
presentation to the science class. She
also asked if they could hatch quail eggs in the classroom like they could
chicken eggs. The classroom incubator
was the same type I used to start my quail business so I told her I thought it
would work.
The presentation went well and I don’t know who was more
excited about the hatch, me or the kids. Every day I stopped by after school hours to
check the temperature and humidity. The
eggs were scheduled to hatch on a Monday so I stopped in the Friday before to
get everything ready for the big event.
Early Monday morning the principle called to say something was terribly wrong
and could I come right away. When I got
there a familiar smell greeted me – dead chicks. I ran over to the incubator and saw some of
the eggs half open and some that were fully hatched but dead.
We quickly cleaned out the dead and dying chicks and tried
to get rid of the smell before any kids arrived. I was horrified and could not figure out what
had gone wrong. Everything looked
perfect on Friday. Even though a few chicks hatched and survived that day, they
asked me to remove the incubator immediately after school. Since I didn’t seem to know what had happened
they were not willing to risk finding any more dead chicks the next morning.
I didn’t think I could ever show my face at the school again
until the principle called and apologized.
The weekend before the hatch the janitor mistakenly unplugged the
incubator to plug in the floor polisher.
The sudden drop in temperature and humidity caused the initial
carnage. Once the temperature was back
to normal the rest of the chicks were able to hatch.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
To Blog or Not to Blog
The ideas never stop
They keep rising to the top
I try to focus, sort and plan
But soon they get the upper hand
If my workday intervenes
I think their gone and then come dreams
Some colorful, some frightening
They seem to be ideas with themes
What would happen if I let go
And listened to the constant flow
Would I continue to create
Or become frozen by the weight
Of random thoughts and questionings
Liberated ideas would bring
Is a stream of conciousness
The way to fame or great success
Or just distractions threatening
to keep my goals beyond my reach
Where was I now, I do digress
There was a reason for this mess
To explain how blogging solves
Where to put ideas that jog
My memories, questions, thoughts and prayers
That may bring hope and joy if shared
They keep rising to the top
I try to focus, sort and plan
But soon they get the upper hand
If my workday intervenes
I think their gone and then come dreams
Some colorful, some frightening
They seem to be ideas with themes
What would happen if I let go
And listened to the constant flow
Would I continue to create
Or become frozen by the weight
Of random thoughts and questionings
Liberated ideas would bring
Is a stream of conciousness
The way to fame or great success
Or just distractions threatening
to keep my goals beyond my reach
Where was I now, I do digress
There was a reason for this mess
To explain how blogging solves
Where to put ideas that jog
My memories, questions, thoughts and prayers
That may bring hope and joy if shared
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